Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Stud in heels? What the f****?

Let me start out by saying welcome to my blog. This is something of an achievement, I'm not really used to blogging. I'm a guy that shifts interests pretty quickly which basically means - one day i can be interested in one subject, and the next day it will be another.

And that brings me to the point. You're probably wondering why i would pick this name for a blog, stud in heels? Sounds gay, does'nt it? Yeah, i thought so. But i had to choose something.

Among my many interests in life, only one interest has prevailed. And let me make this very clear to all of you. Women. I'm a heterosexual, i don't walk down the street wearing red high heels and make-up. Oh wait - actually i do, but not in real life, and i never would.

To make a long story short, i one day stumbled across the world of Second Life. In case you don't know it, go to www.secondlife.com and read some details. It's a virtual world where you have the oppertunity to create a second life, customize your avatar, shop, build, script. Everything in Second Life is made by the residents. Sounds interesting huh? That's what i thought. So I quickly created an account and logged in. And from the first glance, i was pretty much sold for the time being.

I walked around the virtual world, and was stunned at the amount of realism, as I'm sure you will be. In Second Life, people take everything very seriously, and that's what attracted me. But after some time, it became a bit boring. I had been around the shops, visited a few places, met some people - but all in all it was just another chat. Being a guy that's well-traveled on the Internet in my everlasting search for (Sorry chicks, in lack of better words) girl-action - I've already tried a lot of virtual worlds including IMVU. And it was not all that different to me.

But in customizing my character, i saw a tab called "Male/Female". You could choose your gender again, even after subscribing. I'm a very healthy and mature person - always interested in new things, so i thought to myself "I wonder what boobs look like in this game", and i changed the gender. I was throughouly disappointed by what was underneath my clothes. No damn nipples. Well, what the hell - i was about to click the X when someone wrote "Hey pretty, where are you from?".

I thought about it for a couple of seconds, and then a weird thought came to me. I glanced at the top of my window to see where i was, and promptly said "Blanda". We talked for a while, when suddently he logged out. I sat and waited in anticipation for a moment, then went out to the kitchen to fetch a cup of coffee. I had a brilliant idea. What if i could actually fool these guys into thinking that I'm a girl? And what would it feel like to be a woman, just for a couple of days? And come on guys, i KNOW you've all looked in the mirror at some point in your life and thought to yourself "If i could become a girl for just one day, i want to do X". It's just the way us humans are build, we're curious. And so am i.

As a person, i would'nt consider myself a womanizer or player, but I've definetly been around. In all honesty, and I'm sorry for saying this, I've probably hurt a lot of girls out there in my (Sometimes) selfish ways, so why not turn the tables? I wanted to try and feel what it was like to have romance in my life. I wanted to drink champagne on top of the eiffel tower, and glance deeply in my lovers eyes, while he holded me thigh. To explore all my deep feelings and learn from it.

Nope, I'm bullshitting you. I did'nt want to get a closer look at all of this female crap. I could care less about what it was like to be a woman, i just wanted to toy with people and have a little fun on their expense. That was all i thought about, sooooo... *sigh* i started shopping for clothes. After all, i looked like an idiot, and i had already seen some of the other girls in the game. They looked really great, and i at least had to compete with them to get attention. That's when I looked at my in real life girlfriend (Who has a rather great taste in fashion) and went to all the freebie stores possible to claim some sets of great clothes. I got new skins, i camped to buy hair, i went to clubs to meet guys, i even started dating - and guess what? There's a lot more than that.

In the beginning it was a lot like "How the fuck am i going to fake romance? Crap... Where can i read about this stuff?", or "Can chicks score chicks? Hmmmm", and "Why the hell can't i find any WHOLE sets of clothes? How can they fucking expect that I'm able to put these things together and make it look right?". But then i suddently began to get it. I was evolving as a human being, and i kid you not this time, i was really beginning to 'understand' how women think.

I've developed a whole personality to my virtual avatar, and in the process I've learned a lot. Women have a fucking hard time in a lot of things - of course, there's lots of things that's easier too - but damn. It's tough to be a girl.

That's what this blog is going to be about. Experiencing the feminine side of the male alter ego, outlining differences, and mostly some thoughts on the biggest realizations I've had so far on my journey. So now we got all that cleared up. Come back tomorrow.